The holiday season has ended….
The Christmas tree still stands without it’s trimmings because we just haven’t quite finished taking it down. The gingerbread house sits in an empty trashcan because Karen was sweet enough to take out the trash this morning. Otherwise it would have balanced precariously on an overflowing trashcan. I probably should have taken the whole colorful mess to the bin outside, but why? The kitchen trash was empty and was right there. Now the trashcan is full…because of the gingerbread house…sigh….I’ll take it out later. These are the half made decisions of someone who is lazy, but in my head, I’m not lazy, I’m not this person that I see, not in my spirit, am I?
“Confess your trespasses to one another, and pray for one another, that you may be healed. The effective, fervent prayer of a righteous man avails much.” – James 5:16. I want to be a righteous man who’s prayers avail much, so I confess my sins to my brothers and sisters in Christ.
Since the holidays have ended, nearly every day I remember feeling dread when I wake up. That’s not right. As a Christian, that’s not the way it should be. The Word of God commands us to “rejoice always.” Jesus Himself says, “come to Me you who are weak and heavy laden, and I will give you rest.” Well I feel heavy laden A LOT. I wear a lot of responsibility…at least I think I do. I’m a manager over a warehouse, a leader in my church, I volunteer quite a bit, I do a lot for God, I love Him, He loves me and that’s why I do it. So why do I dread? Why do I fear? It’s not right, something’s off and I know it. Does this sound familiar?
This year I made quite a few resolutions and have absolutely not done a single one that I’ve said I would. “Lose weight,” nope, thinking I may be going the opposite direction, but still working on it. “Get organized,” my office looks like it has exploded. Really, it’s embarrassing. “Eat at the dinner table with the kids,” it’s the 10th, maybe I’ve eaten once with the family, hey I’m a busy guy. Sound depressing? It does to me.
One new year resolution I want to keep: STOP waking up afraid. STOP dreading the life that is mine and that the Lord has blessed me with. It isn’t right, and my fear is sin. So I want to repent of that sin, I want to take steps to fix it, some might work, some might not, but the kingdom of God is at hand and I want to show works that show my repentance.
Here’s just a few things I plan on doing to help accomplish this goal.
1. Wake up and pray. Pray for those who may feel like me when they wake up, my loving friends who right now find it hard to get up. Let my first thoughts be GOD. That’s GOD as in LORD GOD, not using his name in vain…even though I’m not a morning person. Don’t forget the coffee. Stop being so down on myself for not getting up earlier than I would have ever got up…I can start doing that when I’m old enough that my body just does it naturally.
2. Remember to take my medicine. The Lord blessed us with doctors for a reason, use what they recommend. Luke was a doctor…I like Luke. Lexapro is my friend.
3. Read a devotion every day before I start work. I have found “My Utmost For His Highest” to be perfect for this. It doesn’t take long, but man, is it profound. It MUST be done.
4. Exercise more, ride the stationary bike when I get home for 20 minutes. I asked the doctor once if there were any foods I could eat that would give the same chemical to my body that my antidepressants provide. Remarkably, he said that exercise is really the only thing that releases seratonin, the chemical that the brain needs. Wow! Exercise! I hate exercise! But I don’t think God made our bodies to sit around all day long, so exercise it will be.
5. Write this stuff down. Someone told me I was pretty good at writing once, I think I’ll start doing it more. Maybe write some progress in “defeating daily despair…” I have a couple more thoughts about yesterday’s devotion on Psalm 139. I’m so thankful the Lord knows me like He does.
6. Read an uplifting devotional just before bed. I firmly believe that Jesus Christ more than likely did a ton of laughing as a person, not like looney toon mind you, but as a person who people were comfortable around. People followed him by the droves, would children have loved him if he was the sullen, quiet guy we see in the paintings all the time?
Well, it’s not a perfect list, but it’s there, and it’s a start. Jesus said we could have life more abundantly. I don’t think our wallets will be fat because of that verse, but I think our mental health should be. I love the Lord so much, along with my family and my church family. Life is to short to dread every day. It is time to overcome and conquer. To be a “glass half full” kind of guy – Deuteronomy 31:6.
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