Me and Ole’ Jonah, Like Two Peas in a Pod

When Pastor Steve told me he would be preaching on Jonah after he wrapped up the book of Romans a couple of months ago, I had the feeling this book from God’s Word would be applying to me.  Turns out I was right.

We’re awfully hard on Jonah aren’t we.  Even non-Christians can tell us about “the man who ran” or “Jonah and the Whale” and put a negative connotation to him.  We look at Jonah and equate him with out right defiance towards God, and remember that God “punished” him for his defiance.  It’s enough to make any sinner quake in his boots if he or she would give the history of God’s Word more credit than a mere children’s story.

I feel for Jonah, and realize much of my situations relates to his.  Recently opportunities have come up that have blind sighted me.  I have a successful job, one where I am trusted, not micro-managed, make a decent wage, and I’m doing what I love.  Such was the case with Jonah, he had a successful ministry, when he spoke, people listened, and he was doing just fine in his career as a prophet until one day God blind sighted him as well. 

God told Jonah to head to Ninevah and cry out against it, to leave his comfort zone and cry out against a city that was wicked and needed to repent in order to escape the judgement of God, but they had to be warned of their sins, and Jonah was the man for the job.  The thing was, Jonah HAD to do what he didn’t want to do in order to do the job.  It cost him some pride, some discomfort (can’t imagine how comfortable being slowly digested by a fish just big enough to swallow you would be) diving into the unknown and his own understanding.

Now I have been faced with a situation in which I am VERY uncomfortable, I am afraid, panic overwhelms me on nearly a daily basis in this new situation that I believe God has called me too.  I believe I am obeying God’s will, but I do not understand why.  It makes me sick that I am so apprehensive on a daily basis, but as I learned today, it is not necessary that I understand the situation, just that I obey what I believe God’s will is.

Jonah did the same, once he was vomited by the fish, he went after his job with all he could.  Deep in his heart, he didn’t understand why God cared so much for these people, but Jonah obeyed, with very little of his own wisdom factoring into his decisions.

I hope I get it right, not making a terribly rash decision in a heat of panic, but I’m obeying…and for now, I pray that is all that’s required of me, not my understanding, and certainly not my emotion.  God help me love what He has given me to do.  Right now I’m just so uncertain….

The Human Condition of “Undeservedness”

“YOU DON’T DESERVE SPIT! — Unless you can pay for it.”  Dave Ramsey says in one of his teaching sessions of Financial Peace University.  This quote would have came right at a time when any one of us may say, “I deserve a newer model car.”  Or “I’ve lived in a mobile home all my life, I deserve a custom built house.”  Or maybe even, ”I deserve to feed the kids happy meals because they won’t shut up, and I don’t have an ounce of strength to open a can of spaghetti-Os or make a PB&J.  The premise is, if you can’t pay for it, you don’t deserve it, no matter how bad a day or life you’ve had.

I’ve been dealing with this idea the past couple of weeks…swallowing it is more like it.  In today’s cause and effect societry we assume God is that way too. 

It’s how we grew up isn’t it?  The parents tell us to be quiet and behave and we do, so we don’t get yelled at or punished.  Well, how many of us work and get paid?  We are so used to “deserving” the things that we get, good or bad, most of the time we absolutely will not be denied.  Yet over the past couple of weeks I’m reminded that God’s ways are not our ways, and His thoughts are not our thoughts. 

Karen and I have been looking for a rent house, deciding we may be able to save more money living closer to my place of employment than paying for gas driving back and forth.  Yet our search has turned up empty, and my frustrations have been made manifest a couple of times because I’m ready to leave the place we’re in.  Honestly, all the places for rent we wouldn’t be able to come close to renting on a month to month basis without sacrificing some major “debt snowball.”  I’ll admit I’ve prayed (or whined), wondering why the Lord doesn’t just lead us straight to the house right away so we can start saving MORE money immediately.  But you’d be surprised at the thoughts I’ve had, ”Lord, my family and I love you, we try to worship you in all we do, don’t we deserve more than what we have?  When will you bless, Lord?  Won’t you please help?”  It wasn’t until later that I thought of Dave Ramsey and realized that none of us “deserve” anything unless we can pay for it do we?  

The bible clearly states the ”wages of sin” is death.  That’s what we all deserve when it comes right down to it – death and Hell.  But we would never be promised a chance at a loving relationship with God had it not been for Jesus Christ who ”paid for” our sins.  Only does belief in Him, His sacrifice, and His ressurection and repentence of our sin allow us to be redeemed to God.  Blood bought and “paid for.”  It’s something we can never buy ourselves, but it’s a gift, all salvation requires is our belief. 

This redemption is not automatic though, just as I don’t “deserve” an affordable rent house just because I’m sucking wind-we don’t automatically deserve Heaven just because we repeat a little prayer after Jesus Christ died.  There must be a recognition of what we, being human and sinful, deserve (Hell); and repenting of what got us there, our willful sin!  This is a truth that is left out of so many churches today.  Too often we see Jesus Christ death on the cross for us as something we have earned just because we’re alive and breathing and God would never send us to Hell.  Unfortunately most of us think more of ourselves and what we think we deserve never allows us to come to this point.  In the end, we are undeserving of God’s grace, but He gives it anyway.  Praise God he gives us the choice to be paid for, without giving what we truly deserve.

Worshiping In the Face of the Enemy

The imagined battle lines were drawn.  Two armies, Israelites and Philistines, had come to slaughter the other into submission.  The giant of a giant army has come to laugh and scoff at the “army of God;” and he states in more definitive terms what the battle lines truly are – man to nine foot, giant man.  Any average soldier imagining themselves fighting this enemy of God were “shaking in their armor.”

Enter David, the shepherd with staff in hand and some food from his father, on a mission to see how his brothers fare in a battle which very well could change the fate of a nation.  Based on the terms the uncircumcised Philistine has laid, David’s concerned father Jesse back home could not only be son-less, he could be cleaning Goliath’s chamberpot and weapons.  It doesn’t take long for David to hear what he considered blasphemy and idiocy spewing from this “champion.” 

David’s worship begins here, “Who is this uncircumcised Philistine that he should defy the armies of the living God?” David asks.  After some rucous, and a scolding from his eldest brother, David is summoned before King Saul and automatically says EXACTLY what Saul should have said the whole battle.  “Let no one lose heart on account of this Philistine; your servant will go and fight him.”  Here he worships in the presence of this royalty, giving credit to the Lord.  “Your servant has been keeping his father’s sheep. When a lion or a bear came and carried off a sheep from the flock, I went after it, struck it and rescued the sheep from its mouth. When it turned on me, I seized it by its hair, struck it and killed it. Your servant has killed both the lion and the bear; this uncircumcised Philistine will be like one of them, because he has defied the armies of the living God. The LORD who delivered me from the paw of the lion and the paw of the bear will deliver me from the hand of this Philistine.” 

Saul replies the only way he can, “Go, and the LORD be with you.” 

And so he does, with a sling and a stone, to make the strongest worship to God almighty.  “You come against me with sword and spear and javelin, but I come against you in the name of the LORD Almighty, the God of the armies of Israel, whom you have defied.  This day the LORD will hand you over to me, and I’ll strike you down and cut off your head. Today I will give the carcasses of the Philistine army to the birds of the air and the beasts of the earth, and the whole world will know that there is a God in Israel.  All those gathered here will know that it is not by sword or spear that the LORD saves; for the battle is the LORD’s, and he will give all of you into our hands.”

Goliath draws near to attack, and David without hesitation RUNS quickly to meet Goliath in battle, slinging a stone from his bag that sinks into the giant’s forehead and brings him to the ground.  Goliath’s sword is then drawn by the young shephard, and used to take his head, and show the size that the giant always was in his eyes compared to the living God. 

David honored God with his lips and heart through this entire ordeal.  He did it among the army of Israel, amidst the presence of Israel’s king, and then in the face of Israel’s enemy.  And he never stopped. 

I think of the impossibility there must have been for David with just his sling and stone to kill this giant.  I have heard this story countless times in my life before, and I must say that I always thought there was someway that “scientifically” the stone hit Goliath just right.  But the more I ponder it, I think of the IMPOSSIBILITY.  Physically, scientifically, this would have been impossible for me to do, and it must have been the same for David the shepherd boy.  David was as human as I am.  Yet David had God, and he knew it, and that was all he wanted - that made the difference.  Knowing God and glorifying His name was David’s utmost desire.  Not because God NEEDED David’s glory, but because David NEEDED God’s heart and honor.  Nothing less would do.  The very character of David’s LORD did not demand David’s honor, but drew his love, and it gave David the heart of a warrior.  This gave God the opportunity to magnify Himself, not just to the Philistine army, but to the army of Israel, and He did the impossible.

Love God in the presence of your enemies, in your difficulties, seek Him , not His glory, not what He will reward with…HIM.

 

 

When Peter Forgot Worship

Yesterday on the way to work, I heard the song “Voice of Truth” by Casting Crowns.  It reminded me of a time when the movie “Facing the Giants” had first come out.  The ideas both the movie and the song conveys helped me to meditate on Peter, as he stepped out of the boat towards the Lord Jesus Christ amidst a storm.  Isn’t it amazing how we can hear a sermon or a Sunday school lesson so many times but never get the point?  God uses Life experiences to drive home the lessons that will make us just a smidge more like Jesus.  Come to think of it, that’s how Jesus taught His disciples…through real life experiences, but that’s for another blog.

There are situations we dread aren’t there?  Situations come up in life that we fear, or that make us nervous, or we would just rather not face altogether.  These experiences may not always be the same for everyone.  Me admitting to my boss that I jacked a project up scares me to death, but to another person, admitting mistakes to their boss might just be another part of their job.  I hated the feeling of cowardice I felt when friends or family pressured me to ride an amusement park roller coaster; but someone else might just blow off the jeers and teasing and go ride the Himalaya without a second thought.  In Matthew 14:22-33, Peter and the apostles of Christ were all facing something they’d rather not deal with – a storm which threatened to sink them.

I tried to put myself into Peter’s sandals as wave after wave crashed into their boat, threatening to sink them.  Perhaps he is doing his best to secure a sail when he looks up and sees what he believes must be a ghost coming toward the boat on the surface of tempest waves.  Then the ghost shouts over the waves, “Do not be afraid!  It’s me, Jesus!” 

I don’t imagine Peter believed this at first, but he had seen great things from Jesus before.  Back on the shore he had just witnessed and helped Jesus Christ feed at least 5000 people with two fishes and 5 loaves of bread, he had never expected this miracle as he began to pass his basket of fish or bread on to the next hungry person, and the next, and the next, until he finally lost count and the laws of supply and demand were completely defied.  If Christ could do that, surely he could walk on water.  Peter decided it was worth his life to see if it truly was Jesus; he would rather be with Jesus, his master and teacher who he loved, then be in this boat, afraid of sinking.  “Lord!  If it really is you!  Tell me to come to you!”

“Come!”  Christ commanded.

Peter is thrilled!  It is the Lord!  I must be with Him, I must go to Him now!  He throws a leg over the stern of the boat and feels solidity under his toes.  He throws the other leg over and lands flat footed on a foamy wave dissipating into a larger sea.  His eyes fix on Jesus, and he begins to walk, one foot in front of the other into the darkness where only Jesus is. 

Peter’s teacher is out there, making this possible.  He is waiting for Peter to take his hand in fellowship, loving Peter so much because Peter trusted him enough to do the impossible – walk on water – just to be with Him.  Peter is worshiping God through this act of faith.

Then perhaps a wave slaps Peter in the face - cold, wet, and shocking - and he begins to examine his surroundings, looking distracted.  Peter looks down at his feet, among waves of darkness, he looks back and sees the boat which is being tossed like a toy in the water, waves continue to slap his body and fear suddenly grips his heart. Peter realizes he is no longer standing, he is sinking!  And like so many of us do when we realize we are in over our heads (whether we believe in God or not), Peter screams  ”Save me, Lord!”

And Jesus is there…

What would have happened if Peter would have made it to Christ, undistracted by the chaos about him and just desiring the satisfaction, pleasure and glory of Jesus?  We may never understand what we do so many times in our frantic attempt to observe and solve our problematic situations (or ordinary everyday situations for that matter).  We would be so much better off if we would just seek the solutions through the heart of our God; look for His pleasure because He is God and He loves us, and just wants our love in return.  What would happen if we found a solution and asked ourselves, “Would this please Jesus?  Is there another solution that would please Jesus even more?”  This glorifies Jesus, this magnifies His greatness:  When we take what seems big to us, and make it small through our love (our worship) for our bigger God.

 

 

Intensity Of Our Lord

Monday morning I woke up thinking to seek God; the Sunday School message I taught the day before suggested all Christians should do so.  We should all seek God with a gazelle type intensity with a fervor and passion that can do absolutely nothing but bring glory and honor to Him.  The problem was, it was difficult to find Him that morning. 

So immediately this story came to mind…

And behold, the LORD passed by, and a great and strong wind tore into the mountains and broke the rocks in pieces before the LORD, but the LORD was not in the wind; and after the wind an earthquake, but the LORD was not in the earthquake; and after the earthquake a fire, but the LORD was not in the fire; and after the fire a still small voice.

1 Kings 19:11-12

The things that I have reflected from this passage gives me more of an idea of how the character of God is.  It amazes me that as the Lord passed by a wind went BEFORE Him.  I tried to place myself in Elijah’s shoes, standing on a mountain and knowing the Lord is passing by, but before He passes, chaos goes before Him, such a strong wind that rocks and mountains were torn in pieces!  Not only this unnatural wind, but an earthquake, and if that wasn’t enough -  fire!  And all of this goes before the Lord.

What an intensity must go before Him!  Then I realized this is the same God I serve.  And He is with me because I have faith in His son Jesus Christ.  My actions should reflect what a God I serve as well, the same Jesus who’s spirit is within me should be living the same type of intensity in my everyday world.  When this type of life is lived, people start to look, but they shouldn’t see God in all the zealousness and determination that His servants serve Him with, they should be able to listen and hear the still small voice that is behind it all – motivating and powerful.  It is in that still small voice that people begin to find peace and salvation, when they look BEHIND the wind, earthquakes and fire my life brings through the Spirit of God.

Honoring God When It Hurts Most

In the Sunday school class I’ve been attending for the past three weeks, we’ve been talking about honoring God.  So far one of the main ideas that have been learned, discussed, and reinforced is the thought of honoring God in “the little things.”  Sounds pretty simple doesn’t it?  One would go, “duh!” to such a thought; but as I’ve found out this week, when it starts hurting, it’s easier said than done.

I’m a firm believer that a person has to have a shift of paradigm; a change in their vantage point (this has been discussed in the Sunday school class as well) must take place before anyone will change their actions for good or bad.  Though I’ve understood this concept and been able to see where it has been applied in my own life to things like personal finance and smoking; I also must admit there are everyday actions and behavior that I’ve not applied this concept to. 

There are some habits that we have that are not necessarily sinful, but they are also not necessarily good either.  Let me use myself as an example.  I have a coworker who knows my moods.  At least, she thinks she does.  And for the most part, she’s right, she knows I like coffee in the mornings, and she thinks enough about me (or God) to have a fresh pot of coffee brewing when I get there.  I usually don’t say much when I come in, and it takes me a while to get woke up, when I finally do come out of my grogginess, my mood improves and the rest of the day is usually quite pleasant.  I like my job and I like the people I work with so being in a good mood is usually not that difficult.  But that habit of being unpleasant in the morning just because I haven’t had my second cup of coffee yet has become a hard habit to break.  And what happens when the mood doesn’t improve?  What if someone says something in the wrong tone while I’m reinforcing my habit?  Or says nothing at all and I think they should?  The results can become disasterous, and in the end, sinful because others can be hurt by what the apostle James calls a tongue of fire.  Who’d have thought I could be half asleep and have a tongue on fire!  (Okay, that was corny, but it does make a funny mental picture)  Either way, I hope I’ve made my point, my paradigm has changed, my point of view.  It is no longer acceptable to be in a bad mood just because its early.  It doesn’t bring honor to God. 

Our God, Lord and Savior deserves more than what I give him and so…enough is enough with this bad habit, and others, but that’s for another blog.

My Friend And Her Spouse Hurt Tonight

Last night a dear friend of mine watched her father pass from this life into the next…

She hurts, noone can question that.  Everyone in the world would agree that she, of all people, does not deserve such a loss.  She loves her Dad; she loves people in general, but she had a special relationship with her dad.

Her husband, I know, hurts for her too.  He hurts because she does, and he doesn’t really know what to do to make the pain she feels to stop. 

That’s okay guys…take your time.  One of the things I love about our Comforter, the Spirit of our Lord Jesus Christ, is He is eternal.  He has all the time in the world to restore your heart to joy.

Psalm 139: The Effective, Loving, Ever-present God

Psalm 139: The Effective, Loving, Everpresent God

Recently a friend of mine asked if I had ever meditated on Psalm 139.  I’ve read a portion of it, but have never sincerely looked at it extensively…until today. Before I really go into my thoughts on just a few of what I feel are the main verses of the passage, I would like to say I believe in the sovereignty of God; He can do what He wants…period.  I know I will never understand all He wishes to do in my life despite the kind of person I am, but He does.  That’s one thing I’ve learned from this passage. Secondly, we know that God has endowed his creation man with a free will, and God is glorified when, despite of all we’ve done, we accept Him as He is, Holy, Sovereign and all. “O Lord, you have searched me, and known me.”This to me is the heart of Psalm 139.  God knows me, He understands me, and understands my thoughts far off or near.  He knows them as I think them; He knows them years down the road.  The Lord knows me so well that there is no word on my tongue or lips that God doesn’t know before I say it.  He is also behind me and in front of me.  He “comprehends” where I go, and when I just lie down…he understands my motivations for getting up in the morning and going from place to place and my motivations for going to bed - whether I’m tired or lazy.  If he knows that, He surely also knows why I stay in bed, and whether or not I believe I have any reason for getting up. God knows me; I heard it once said, “God is above me looking down, below me looking up, to my right side looking left and left side looking right, he is within me looking out.”  He knows my outside, every dimple, every pimple, every pucker, and every imperfection.  He knows my inside, every hair, every blood cell, every blood clot, every fat cell…He knows me.  He knows my heart, sinful motivations, sinful feelings and sinful flesh.  I’m a sinner, and he knows that…saved by grace, by Jesus Christ, but a sinner just the same…and with all that information that God knows about my person…verse 5 says He has “laid His hand upon me.” I cannot “flee from God’s spirit,” even if I wanted to.  This doesn’t mean I can’t go out from His grace and sin, it just means God is everywhere and ever present, no matter where I go, He is there.  God will orchestrate life to bring me back as a child of God, and as a sinner, orchestrate life to bring sinners to Him.  But even when I want to hide, when I say “surely the darkness shall fall on me,” even then God shall light the darkness so nothing may hide in the darkness.  He is there, and nothing will hide from Him, no secret sins.  He knows them, even the dark secrets of our past, it doesn’t surprise Him, He makes night to day and darkness and day are one to Him, because it is ALL light. “Oh that you should slay the wicked, O God!”  This passage seemed strangely out of place to me, until I thought that maybe the wickedness would be within me.  It makes sense.  After all that trying to hide my sin, hide in the darkness, and I now see how I am before a Holy, righteous God because of His light, would it not make sense to ask Him to slay the wickedness within? Can this sin within be  my enemy?  Who else might say that I am “my own worst enemy?”  Couldn’t all of us?  I think I’m on the right track in this line of thinking as the next section of verses say, “Search me, O God, and know my heart…see if there is any wicked way within me.” My friend asked after reading this Psalm 139, “How can God forgive me if He knows I’m going to screw up again anyway?”  Because He knows you, and mercy is in His disposition, He’s sovereign and He can, and He also knows He gave you a free will.  He has faith in Himself and His Word, and He knows His light will eventually lead your free will to saying “Search me, O God!  Try me!”  God is God, and He made a Way, and Jesus is sufficient for us, even when we doubt ourselves.  I see this passage as joyful.  If God knows me this well, how can I lose when I trust Him and Him alone?  Not trust Him and myself, but just Him.  And guess what?  We don’t have to understand it all….just trust Him, He does…He’s God.  Even the Psalmist said, “such knowledge is too wonderful for me: It is high, I cannot attain it.”  God is God, He is love, He puts His hand on me, He lights up the shadows and sin I’ve hidden (that’s a good thing), and He looks for us to cry out to Him because He is God, and he loves us, whether we understand it or not.